Veni Vidi Amavi                 

Veni Vidi Amavi 

    We came. We Saw. We Loved. 

 

I’ve been back in the states for a couple of days now and as always after travel I find myself reevaluating where I am and where I want to be. This trip was so much different and wonderful than I could have ever hoped for. I found out so much more about myself than I ever could have imagined. 

 

I haven’t been out of the country since my autoimmune disease diagnosis. I needed time to understand it and get to a place where my body and my mind were strong enough to handle lengthy trips again. I was beyond nervous as I had been having a horrible flare up for several weeks before leaving and didn’t know if the doctors would clear me. I barely scraped by with clearance just a day before I was supposed to leave. There were times during the trip where I could feel my body aching and tiring too quickly but overall I felt more like myself than ever. I won’t say my old self though because that self was broken, confused, and very lost. I’ve never been ashamed of where I’ve been or who I’ve been…it’s all a part of me and a part of my story and I appreciate those parts the most as they helped me claw my way out of the little shell I had glued and stapled myself into. This trip managed to rip off the small remnants that were still bandaged on. 

 

Brussels forced me out of comfort zone like no other trip ever had. It provided a feeling of liberation as I learned to fly by the seat of my pants again and to not be afraid of what comes next. There was no plan- a very not me move. Every day brought on a new adventure with different twists and turns that I could have never anticipated. I had the most resistance with Brussels as it was so far out of my comfort zone and with that I found more freedom and the ability to resolve my emotions. 

 

Dublin captivated me. I was in awe at the beauty of the cliffs of Moher and the ruins of the Rock Cashel. The stunning grounds of Blarney found the magical spark I thought had gone out long ago as the history flooded through every tree and rock. The streets of Dublin and the swans captured my heart in a way I don’t think I will ever be able to fully describe as I lived out the perfect movie scene day after day.

London reminded me just how connected we all are. We were all so different, but together we blended into the most imperfect mesh of culture, society, and humanity. I got to be Alice, meet the more sophisticated London version of me, conquer fears, get tattooed, and eat foods from all over. London, most of all, felt like home. Some city, some art, and the ease of walking around a place that seemed so familiar yet very new. 

 

And I got to do it all with my best friend by my side as she kept me wild and I kept her safe. 

 

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Story of the Week

I haven’t done a story of the week in quite some time. Unfortunately, this story isn’t an inspirational or happy one. This story is about a girl from the county next to the one I went to high school in. I decided to post this link because many of my photography client’s, friends, and children of friends knew this girl.

Please note that cause of death is unknown. However, suicide is speculated. There have been many rumors that the girl was bullied and that led to suicide, but many of her close friends disagree with this. There has been a lot of controversy regarding what happened, but the most important thing has been overlooked. A young 16 year old is gone- whether it was because of bullying or inner demons or a freak accident- she is gone. And for some of her friend’s this is the first true loss they’ve ever encountered.

Please remember that life is short and unpredictable, so laugh when you can, smile through the tears, and make sure to love the world deeply, even when you feel alone in it. You are never alone.

If you’re a parent make sure to remind your kids that you love them and are always there if they need you. If you’re not make sure to reach out to people. Even a simple smile can help make a day better.

http://www.wusa9.com/story/news/2014/09/29/cara-lynn-golias-of-fairfax-missing-manassas-park-middle-school/16433539/